tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-62229112234849685382024-03-13T06:46:45.320-07:00Stamping From The HeartInk, Images and Designs from the HeartDebhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.comBlogger133125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-60688812476134695632015-05-13T12:00:00.002-07:002015-05-13T14:38:50.114-07:00Finally Getting Around to Making Journals.....I have had so many blank journal books in my craft room and decided I'd take a couple of them out and make them for some friends. I have to thank Deanna (can't remember her blog name) for the idea as I wouldn't have thought to do them this way. I plan on making more of these as they would make nice gifts for last minute.<br />
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As I assembled and made this card, tears formed and I remember this day Wayne took this picture. We had stopped along the side of the road. We had been driving for almost 7 hours from San Diego due to heavy traffic where we had photographed a beau<span class="text_exposed_show">tiful and magical wedding at Camp Pendleton.</span></div>
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<span class="text_exposed_show">The traffic was awful, so he decided to pull over so we could stretch our legs. He turned and said bring me the camera I see a perfect opportunity for a picture, knowing not to argue with him even though we were both exhausted, I got the camera and asked which lens and he said the macro. By the time I got the camera out and loaded the lens on and flash he was laying on the ground!!!!! </span></div>
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<span class="text_exposed_show">If you knew him and his photography perfectionism you'd understand why. LOL!!! I thought okay maybe he sees a special kind of bug or a small animal for that matter. Then when I saw him photographing a dandelion I really thought okay he's lost it! But what I didn't see until he handed me the camera was the beautiful sunset that he saw was happening and wanted to capture it in a unique way. </span></div>
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<span class="text_exposed_show">Even back then in 2006 he was so in tuned to God and he said didn't God give us a beautiful sunset just now? I stood in awe looking at him and then back at the picture he had just taken. I remember asking him what made you take this picture? He said I saw the sunset then I looked down and thought Hmmm I wonder? I still stood in awe looking at him and remembering my thoughts of Lord, you surely have given this man an amazing eye to capture the beauty you give us to look at. Wayne had an eye for the unusual and amazing pictures. </span></div>
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<span class="text_exposed_show">I wish I could share with you all the weddings he took, how he captured the love, the purity between a couple. How he could make a shy flower girl twirl in her dress, capturing the look on the mothers face as her son takes a wife...there are so many memories of him taking all the perfect pictures. I have so many beautiful pictures he's taken over the years we had our business, pictures that will be reflected in cards to come, but on nights like tonight, I truly miss him and his God given gift of showing how we all should appreciate the beauty that God surrounds us with each day</span></div>
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Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-92425837690145592015-05-13T11:18:00.000-07:002015-05-13T11:18:13.656-07:00Thank You Cards for Women's ConferenceThought since its been a while (quite awhile) I'd upload cards that I've made and didn't post them. All of these were commissioned for a women's conference in Virginia along with favors to be placed in each woman's goodie bag who attended the conference.<br />
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Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-32262424068685958412014-09-18T15:11:00.001-07:002014-09-18T15:12:42.452-07:00Commissioned cards for Womens Conference in VirginiaWill come back and post later..just need to get these on my blog :)<br />
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Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-10977230637775407732014-05-12T10:55:00.000-07:002014-05-12T10:55:06.201-07:00Mothers Day CardsIt seems the Lord is given me provisions in small increments to help in the finances and I'm okay with that. I am hoping to build up my clientele in regards to making cards and other items. I was blessed when a friend of mine Candy asked me to make her four cards she could give to her daughters on Mothers Day. She was specific in choosing the color theme and the verse that she wanted displayed on the front of the cards. She gave me a description of how each daughter was in her taste, elegant, clean lines, bows and so forth, but definitely wanted bling/pearls on each card. I was ecstatic to learn that each daughter was elated with her card that she received. So without further adieu here they are. <br />
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Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-71081615195335984542014-04-01T15:23:00.001-07:002014-05-12T10:44:33.480-07:00I am all settled into my new place finally and have begun crafting. I've been commissioned to make two cards for a widow friend. Here is the cards I made on Sunday. <br />
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I am finally moved into my new place, everything is put away and unpacked except for 5 boxes. Still have to paint the accent walls and put pictures up as well as all the drapes, but for the most part I'm pretty settled. I had saved my craft room for last to unpack so I could take my time going through things I've had for years, organizing all the crafty items and arranging so it would be easy to reach when crafting at my desk. My sweet son came over and got all my shelves hung in my craft room and that's when I really began to unpack as now there was a place for everything out of each box. I came across a box of cards I had started two years ago, but when Wayne became ill I stopped and just kind of threw all the pieces in the box thinking I would get to them soon, but that was not the case. So now all settled in my new home, I decided to pull out the box, looking at all I had placed in there 2 years ago and reminiscing of why I had cut, punched and placed the embellishments in it and decided last night to assemble and make a card. I'm sure this wasn't one I had planned on, but it was like putting a puzzle together and this is what I came up with. Simple but elegant I think. But it just feels good to start getting my creativity back and do what my heart has missed doing for so long.Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-42568138517129156472014-02-21T10:27:00.000-08:002014-02-21T10:27:21.035-08:00A little late...But Happy New Year!!!!!Can't believe it's 2014!!! Where did time go? So many changes that are getting ready to take place for me this year! In December of 2013 my family and I celebrated Christmas on December 22nd, which I was dreading due to the fact that was Wayne and I's 21st anniversary. But in the midst of being so emotional that morning, God reminded me that he was right next to me, holding and comforting me through this difficult day. Later in the afternoon I went over to my son's house along with my daughter and her family we celebrated Christmas and exchanged gifts. The grandkids were in ooh and awe of the gifts they had received as well as my kids as I had a couple surprises for them as well. As we were gathering up the wrappings, ribbons and so forth to be thrown away, my sweet daughter(in-law) said wait there is one more special gift for Mom/Grandma. Of course I had this shocked looked on my face, but she handed me the box that on top said Merry and Bright. I removed the lid and there was this tear jerker letter written by my grown kids and their spouses acknowledging how strong I had stayed this past year and that although I still had challenges ahead in my new life they wanted me to know that they loved me and to remember that God was right beside me. So after calming myself down from the letter, I see there is this picture of the ocean with the massive waves with a beautiful sentiment written on it as well, okay tears are still coming but not as much as before, then I remove the picture and here sits a black velvet box and I open it and here is this beautiful Jane Seymour Open Heart 14k white gold pendant with sapphires symbolizing the waves and where my beloved had been buried. Now the down pour of tears followed. I asked the children why and they said because we love you mom and when you wear that necklace you'll always know how much we love you and glad you are our mother/mother-in law. And that Dad is in heaven with God looking down on you. Needless to say I was so moved and so blessed to have such wonderful kids who are always loving me and making me feel special.<br />
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Since August 2013 I had been praying that The Lord would help me find a new place to live not only for financial reasons but because I could no longer come in this home that we shared together without becoming depressed and crying. Wayne made our home a custom home, with the custom painted walls, the way things were hung and accents to compliment each room. Well God came through in November and I will be moving out on February 1st to a new place that I will able to call "Mine" not ours. I sold the 73 inch TV, the leather furniture that he so dearly loved as we have had leather ever since we were married which was fine, but now I want to make it more girly if you will, our home was decorated around the Tuscany theme with grapes, vines, and using the colors of Taupe Latte walls with one wall being accented in Cranberry Cove. Now I've decided to pack all that away and my new place will have plaids and florals making a more old English country look. I'm excited about<br />
the bedroom as for the first time I'll finally be able to have to my lavender/heathermist bedroom. But I think the most exciting thing is that I will finally be able to get back into God given talent of crafting. It had been impossible for me to craft these last 16 months due to the fact that Wayne was in that room a lot as he went through his treatments and would sleep while I crafted away. The presence of him was so heavy in the room. But God is good and he has answered some of the prayers already. I've beenDebhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-43575895988627519292013-10-02T14:25:00.001-07:002013-10-02T14:25:48.336-07:00Hard To Believe Its Been A Year........<div class="yiv4153292898s2" style="margin-bottom: 0px; margin-top: 0px;">
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7967"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7968">It’s hard to believe it has been a year since my beloved was called to his heavenly home. There have been many changes in my life this past year that I thought I would never have to experience by myself and yet even during my tsunami days of tears, days of being joyful and smiling knowing he was walking with Jesus and as the weeks and months passed how I felt God’s presence next to me each and every single day I continue to give God Glory for always being right beside me and many times feeling his peace and love encasing me in His strong arms assuring me, that I must go on and continue to spread the gospel to lead many more to Him before He returns.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7966">But many do not know that Wayne knew in 2011 he was going to be going to heaven the following year so I thought in memory of him I’d share of what took place as we vacationed and understand how in tuned he was with God. As it was exactly one year and three days</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> he was called home from the time of our vacation.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7959"><span class="yiv4153292898s3">In</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> the fall of </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">September </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">2011 before Wayne became </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">really </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7963">ill, we took a vacation that was long overdue. We went to Vegas to see </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">The </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Donny and Marie Osmond</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> Show. On this vacation</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7958">, we visited many casinos, took pictures, ate at fine restaurants, swam in the pools, did sightseeing, saw a couple of other shows, shared a glass of wine and laughed, but in the middle of the vacation while we </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">were </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7969">standing at the top of the Eiffel Tower watching the water show </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">at the </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Bellagio across the street, Wayne</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7970"> looked at me with a look I’ve never seen before on his face</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> i</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">n the 19 years we’ve been married</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">, he</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> said to me,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">“in</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">2</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Kings 20:1-</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">the Lord says-s</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">et your house in order”</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">. He </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7971">said we need to do this…</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">we need to get </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">our house in order as I won’t be here next year”.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7974"><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Not really comprehending</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> what he really meant </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7973">or as to why he quoted that verse at that specific time while </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">we were watching the water show,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I came back with response “of course you won’t be here next year</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> silly</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7976"> we are planning to go to Hawaii</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">remember?”</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I hugged him and said</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">“</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">You’re</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> not going anywhere”.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> Life was sweet</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> at that moment while </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">we were </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">on vacation</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7978"> and I was</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7977"> totally</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> aloof to his statem</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">ent. Nothing is going to h</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">appen to him I thought and I remember silently speaking to God asking </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">“</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">why Lord would he say that to me?</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">”</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Little did I know that 3-1/2 months later I would </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">fully </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">understand </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">as to why he made that</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">comment</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7980"><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I read that exact verse the other day and </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I can</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7984"> so vividly remember that conversation we had on the</span></span></div>
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<span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">top of the tower</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">word for word</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8127"> as if it was just yesterday; </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">and </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">not realizing until </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">the</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">19</span><span class="yiv4153292898s4" style="vertical-align: super;">th</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> day </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7982">into the new year</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7983"> of 2012,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> that I truly </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7986">understood what Wayne meant</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">, we or</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> should I say</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> I didn’t realize that Wayne</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> knew</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">he </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">was going to die </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">in 2012</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> and God </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">had</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7979"> already prepared and</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7987">told Wayne what </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">he needed to </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">do.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> I know with all my heart that</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> God had already given him a vision</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> back then</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> as to what</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> our</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7988"> life was going to be like for the next 9 months in 2012.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8126"> Which explained when he had his good days, he was buzzing around</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> as if he had an adrenaline high from coffee, repairing and cleaning</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> the house</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> taking care of things and on the phone </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">handling</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8125"> things that only he could do.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8003"><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I’m Not the Same Woman I Was A Year Ago</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8020">…..</span></span></div>
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<span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"></span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8021">Twelve months ago today I spent the last 8</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8006">6 hours beside my beloved, as a </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8007">wife, </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8008">best friend, lover,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8016"> soul mate,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8017"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8018">caretaker and strong advocate for </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8005">my precious husband of 20 years. Four excruciating days later at 1:20 A.M.,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8009"> he joined our Lord in his </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8022">new heavenly </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8124">home and</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8024"> I became a </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8019">member of a new club I never wanted to belong too “A W</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8002">idow</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8023">”</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8010">.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7998"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8011">I look back at this 57 year old woman </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">today,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8000"> and I hardly recognize her.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">And although I couldn’t see it at the time, that’s where my transformation began,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7997"> a transformation that I never thought I was capable of and</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> with</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8028"> the gift of</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8029"> hindsight, I see </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8030">many changes and</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8031"> differences.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7990"><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8027">have more gr</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8026">a</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8025">y hair</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7995">, more than when this journey began </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">that is </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">for sure</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">. There are extra pounds</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> on my frame, most likely from “grief eating</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> and sitting instead</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> of</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> out </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8032">exercising</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">”. </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7994">The stress level has become low, t</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">here are more wrinkles on my face and my walk </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">is a little slower as</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> I’m constantly in prayer</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> talking with God</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> about every aspect in my life now</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7993"> and what does He have planned for me in this new life as a widow/single woman I am now experiencing</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">and about</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> the loss of my beloved </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Wayne. </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7992">How I’ve had to </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_7989">write the last chapter of our life together and close this </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">book of </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">our</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> marriage</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> which I thought would last forever</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">, </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">and </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">my life with my Prince Charming </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">as it no longer </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">exists</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> and is no</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">w placed on a shelf</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> in my heart</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> if you will</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> with </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">many others books on that same heart shelf </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">as I traveled the road of life. </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">But those are just physical changes, an all outward appearance if you will.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8042"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8121">It’s t</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">he </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">inward transformation </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">that </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">has b</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">een painstakingly beautiful </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">with emphasis on “PAIN”.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Since his death, I’ve learned to </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">really </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">love</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> more deeply</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> and </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8044">do it without reservation, appreciating</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8041"> the smallest things, the flower budding through the concrete, the butterfly flitting around the umbrella, the baby birds chirping away as I drink my tea in the morning.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">The </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">joyful </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">glee of </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">my </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">grandchildren</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">when they are visiting me</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"></span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8038"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8120">M</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">y patience </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8046">has become greater</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> as I no longer worry about time, drive slower to appreciate the scenery God has </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">lain</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> before me;</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8040"> I am more empathetic, and can cry at a moment’s notice. I’m stronger than I was during his illness and </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">that’s </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">only</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> been made possible</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8037"> by the grace of God; I know firsthand how short life can be and I cram every</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> second into every</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> minute into</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> every hour into</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> each day God gives me as </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I know </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I’m not</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> promised tomorrow.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8034"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8119">I</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">’ve learned</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> to</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8033"> forgive more easily and love enormously.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">Gone are the ill feelings of stubbornness, </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">h</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">olding grudges, </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">revenge and sharpness of the sword (tongue) of words and anything else that doesn’t give glory to God. </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">I listen more intently and pray before I speak or respond to someone’s question or concern.</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> I say what I mean and I mean what I say. I thirst after God, and try to seek his input in every aspect of my life and decisions that need to be made</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8118"> as I began this journey of being “A Widow”.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8113"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8112">Am I healed? Not by a long shot!</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3"> Grief is a journey and the mileage traveled is unknown.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8061"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8064">Yet, sometimes when we are faced with loss and heartache, we tend to question God, doubting His promise of love and providing what we need and His protection. Although God does have the authority and ability to protect us from every</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8067"> trial and tribulations we go through,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8068"> He uses th</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8069">ese hard times</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8063"> we go through to teach us, to purify us and draw us closer to Him. </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8065">A</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8066">t times it may seem that God has not p</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8071">rovided or protected</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8060"> us in the way we need or desire, but we can rest in knowing that He loves </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8074">us </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8075">and </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8073">is </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8070">providing for us in the way He knows is best for us to learn to fully depend on God</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8072">.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8050"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8059">I’m still under </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8052">major </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8049">construction as I travel this road of being a widow</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8076"> but I am so thankful that God has great patience with me. </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">He reminds </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">me that</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8053"> he is the potter and I am the clay that he is molding</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8078"> me</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8077"> to serve him more and reminds me </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8054">daily to look to him for encouragement, for His great love he has for me; to remind me He is now my husband and will provide for me.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8057"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8056">As I begin my second year of being a widow/single I know</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8080">Wayne would want me to go on, to live life to its fullest</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8079">, to love extra on our kids and our precious grandchildren</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8082"> and</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8084"> maybe one day in the future</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8085"> if it is of God’s will and plan for me that He will once again bring me the love of my life</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8081"> to be with until he calls me home</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8083">, one to laugh and share life to the fullest</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8087"> with</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8086"> all the while giving Him glory for what he has given</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8089">, but until </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8090">th</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8088">at day comes, I will continue to lean on Him, to pray and depend on Him to provide all that I need to get through each day as a </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8091">widow/</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8092">single woman. I have been blessed to have had </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3">this wonderful </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8096">godly man of 20 years as </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8097">my </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8098">true lo</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8099">ve</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8093"> in my life and I know that I will experience it once again</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8100">,</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8095"> but it will be in God’s perfect timing and I will wait patiently and until then I will serve Him and do w</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8094">hatever is asked of me from Him as each new day begins with a beautiful sunrise He so loving sets before my eyes gently reminding me H</span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8102">e has my best interest at heart and is with me.</span></span></div>
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<span id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8104"><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8103">Thank you for all your prayers and support during this very difficult year. </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8106">For your heartfelt comments, for your private messages of prayer and reminding me during my days of uncontrolled emotions that </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8107">God is good and will continue to be my </span><span class="yiv4153292898s3" id="yui_3_7_2_1_1380745267135_8108">side, guiding and protecting me and that He has a plan for my life that will glorify Him.</span></span></div>
Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-68384381521779654132013-05-09T11:49:00.003-07:002014-04-01T16:02:08.620-07:00Another Craft Moment...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-33389116871574808122013-02-22T15:23:00.003-08:002013-02-22T15:23:31.816-08:00I'm Still Here..Nothing new to post or to show as I haven't quite gotten back onto the creative mood. Its taken me this long to force myself to go up to my craft room. Wayne did so built so many things for me in there to make the room perfect and his presence is heavily felt when I'm up there and I know you're saying "that should be a good thing" but trust me it is very hard. Just looking at all he has done, has brought me to gut wrenching tears. <br />
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So little by little I'm making it back up there even if its only 5 minutes at a time. Please continue to follow me. I have lots of things I want to make and share, but timing is still not quite there for me. <br />
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Hugs to all who have visited. Please leave comments so I know you're still following me. :)Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-79179334939183003212012-11-06T08:51:00.002-08:002012-11-06T08:51:55.064-08:00Life Can Change So Quickly....Its hard to imagine that its been 4 months since I last posted on here. In the 4 months of my absence my husband passed away after a long battle with cancer. He went into ICU on my birthday (June 25th) and passed away 3 months and 3 days later. It has been a very exhausting and tiring journey, but he and I both finally reached the peaceful shores from the turbulent waters we had been treading. He is now up in heaven with our precious Lord and Savior; talking and walking on the streets of gold with Jesus and all of our loved ones who have gone before him. He is no longer in pain and has anew body to run, walk and move like he never was able to before. I will be getting back into crafting and sharing items at the beginning of the year, but for now I can't even go upto my craftroom as he built it for me and all the customazation he did, makes it hard to be in there as I see him everywhere in there and just cry. So please be patient and say a prayer for me to regain my strength and help the healing process become a little easier. After 20 years of having a soulmate sent from heaven, its hard to be alone in the house and time will heal I know, but until then...thank you for checking in. Please feel free to leave comments. Here is my sweet hubby's memorial page for any who would like to read it: <br />
<a href="http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=98645558">http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=98645558</a>Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-73730711340154914702012-06-20T15:56:00.000-07:002012-06-20T15:59:23.437-07:00Hi Everyone!!!It's hard to believe its been 6 weeks since I last posted on here, but time has a way of getting away from you. Hubby finished up his radiation about 2 weeks ago and is doing good. The radiation continues to work in the body for another three weeks. We go back to the radiologist on July 5 to see if any further treatment is needed. Crossing fingers (xx) that the cancer has been completely eradicated. We go back to USC on the July 11th for another MRI to see how everything compares to the first MRI they took. Hubby has kind of gotten back to himself, yesterday we went to see an opthamologist to get him glasses to keep the right eye strengthen and from being so strained as it has been these last few months. He has cut back on the pain meds and that has seem to help him have more energy and easier to be around. At the end of this month we are going with friends over to the coast for 4 days and I think that will do him good to get away form the ordinary routine and hum drum of everyday of being home. I have been working on projects and will be posting them as soon as I get the pictures unloaded from camera. Thank you for all your prayers, they certainly have worked for him and are still needed until this journey ends.Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-76926360272476708232012-05-02T10:33:00.002-07:002014-04-01T16:02:54.225-07:00Thank You and Update<div class="separator" style="border: currentColor; clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Good Morning All! It has been a crazy month and a half, but things seem to be looking brighter on this journey we are on. Before I go any further, this is the card I have made in multiples to send out this week to all who have been so kind, compassionate and johnny on the spot for everything from taking him to his cancer treatments, cooking yummy dinners, cleaning our home, running errands and being there just to give us a shoulder to cry on and who have lifted us up in continuous prayer. There are not enough words in the dictionary to tell them how appreciative we are of the love they have showed us!!!! Hubby had the "Big Surgery" on April 6th. They were able to remove most of the cancer and had stated that the 4 weeks of radiation he had, did shrink the cancer some; but they found that the cancer had definitely spread to the brain in the cavenous sinuses. They removed nerves, muscles and all the other stuff that is in the orbital area of the left eye. His left eye was to be removed, but they left that and his eye will now be permanently closed since he has no muscle to raise the lid. So hence, we begin radiation again in two weeks for the cancer in the brain. Chemotheraphy isn't an option as it was stated to us that the brain doesn't absorb but 1% of the medicine used in chemo. It was a little disheartening to hear that, but on the brighter side my hubby's survival rate went from 2 to 5% to 25%. So Needless to say we're excited about that. Please contniue to pray for him as we still have a very long journey ahead of us. Thanks for looking!</div>
Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-11922550917483505742012-03-26T19:52:00.010-07:002014-04-01T16:03:47.598-07:00Good Monday Evening!!!<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-GgRkRiWS8EY/T3EsmK0LZbI/AAAAAAAAAvM/ORsspI0C4oc/s1600/Hugs%2Band%2Bkisses.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-GgRkRiWS8EY/T3EsmK0LZbI/AAAAAAAAAvM/ORsspI0C4oc/s320/Hugs%2Band%2Bkisses.jpg" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5724405635614467506" style="cursor: pointer; float: left; height: 320px; margin: 0px 10px 10px 0px; width: 275px;" /></a>I hope your weekend was restful and you managed to get some things done that needed to be done in your craft room. I have been making out my plan of action for items that I will be making for the Relay For Life Bazaar. If I can get them done, it would benefit our team quite well. But I needed to get these cards posted that I made back in February to celebrate Love and Valentine's Day and never got them posted as things were starting to get a little crazy with hubby's illness. So<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-jRKWOxySOsQ/T3Etn6i59SI/AAAAAAAAAvY/SsDcNGmxneg/s1600/Love.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-jRKWOxySOsQ/T3Etn6i59SI/AAAAAAAAAvY/SsDcNGmxneg/s320/Love.jpg" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5724406765118420258" style="cursor: pointer; float: right; height: 320px; margin: 0px 0px 10px 10px; width: 269px;" /></a> here they are without further adieu. I used a combination of Stamps, Cricut Cartridges and papers that I have had for quite awhile. My kids and even my hubby tease me and tell me that I could open up my own store with all the craft supplies I have accumulated over the years. LOL!!! But I am a sucker f<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1fdL0qvESdA/T3Eu_FMKnGI/AAAAAAAAAvk/jLeO0pmAmM0/s1600/You%2BHave%2BMy%2BHeart.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1fdL0qvESdA/T3Eu_FMKnGI/AAAAAAAAAvk/jLeO0pmAmM0/s320/You%2BHave%2BMy%2BHeart.jpg" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5724408262624451682" style="cursor: pointer; float: left; height: 320px; margin: 0px 10px 10px 0px; width: 290px;" /></a>or glittery papers, bling and anything that has hearts and is very girly and feminine. But I think my favorite colors of papers I seem to go after over and over again are the blacks, reds, shimmery whites and silvers. There is something just so rich about them. Which may explain why my hideway/craftroom is done in these colors especially black and white with a hint of red. Touches of silver/chrome here and there. I guess that seems to be the mainstay of a lot of craftrooms that I have seen on many forums. Its just a bold and yet clean crisp look. Enjoy!!Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-42511099017495915362012-03-24T19:36:00.006-07:002014-04-01T16:04:37.376-07:00Where Does Time Go???<div>
I have finally gotten back into my room again. With Hubby starting his cancer treatments, things have been in a whirlwind. We just finished his 3rd week of the 7 weeks of radiation. But that may change as we are headed to USC on Wednesday as there seems to maybe (xx crossing fingers) be a change in the treatment plan. All I know is his doctor down there insisted on seeing him Wednesday and explained to me that we would be her last appointment as <a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-S0xOR1NrcPI/T26G96uIEWI/AAAAAAAAAvA/qIYU-Y1XD2M/s1600/Kneel.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-S0xOR1NrcPI/T26G96uIEWI/AAAAAAAAAvA/qIYU-Y1XD2M/s320/Kneel.jpg" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5723660574727344482" style="cursor: pointer; float: right; height: 350px; margin: 0px 0px 10px 10px; width: 349px;" /></a>she needed to talk with us at length, so I am going to go out on the limb and say that maybe the "big surgery" will be taking place. Radiation takes an awful toll on your body and my sweet hubby is trying to be a trooper, but the pain in his face and his body slowing down just breaks my heart. Anyway please continue to pray for him, the doctors and what lies ahead for us. Thank you to all the ladies from SCS who continue to send him cards of support, encouragement and inspiration. You have no idea how much it lightens his day up when he receives cards from ladies who don't even know him but know me through SCS especially when its a bad day after his treatment. I have managed to get two tiles done with quotes for my friend Vikki. Two neighbors happen to pop by when I was finishing this one up and each of them requested one as well done one on gray tile with white vinyl and the other one done with a black tile done in grey vinyl. I will be placing these for sale in my etsy store soon. Have a wonderful evening!</div>
Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-59287640454114878342012-03-05T14:26:00.006-08:002014-04-01T16:06:26.707-07:002011 Christmas Gifts....Tile with Quote<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-rG02yj26-iA/T1U9u6AZIyI/AAAAAAAAAuw/-2Z6glzpnws/s1600/Home%2Bis%2BWhere%2BYour%2BStory%2BBegins%2BLarge%2Be-mail%2Bview.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-rG02yj26-iA/T1U9u6AZIyI/AAAAAAAAAuw/-2Z6glzpnws/s320/Home%2Bis%2BWhere%2BYour%2BStory%2BBegins%2BLarge%2Be-mail%2Bview.jpg" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5716543178070893346" style="cursor: hand; float: left; height: 320px; margin: 0px 10px 10px 0px; width: 318px;" /></a> These were the tiles I made for family and friends last year for the Christmas 2011. Took me awhile to figure out a gift that could be used all year long and not just during holidays. This saying is one of my daughter's favorites and I thought this could be used in anyone's home no matter their decor. It has been fun making these and the requests have come in for additional tiles with different quotes. I'm anxious (well not too anxious...LOL!!!) for the holidays to roll around again as I have come up with some ideas using the tiles again for this year as gifts specifically for the holidays in this size as well as smaller and even larger than a 12x12. It seems once I discovered you can do anything with vinyl I instantly became hooked! LOL!!! My poor Cricut Machine is getting its little needle worked! When you go into the home improvement stores and you buy 3 of this color and 2 of this color or even 1, they make a comment of "Oh, guess you can't decide on what color of flooring to do in your home". I just laugh and say no its for a gift and they give you the oddest look. LOL!!!!Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-48293699130106804342012-03-02T11:30:00.005-08:002014-04-01T16:07:28.245-07:00For A FriendThis saying known as the "Serenity Prayer" is used for many organizations. It is used for AA, Drug Rehab, the loss of a l<img alt="" border="0" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-MYbjhsj1dTk/T1EhK0-4YTI/AAAAAAAAAuk/JGCta2myuxI/s320/Serenity%2BPrayer.jpg" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5715385872014663986" style="cursor: hand; float: left; height: 307px; margin: 0px 10px 10px 0px; width: 320px;" />oved one and so on. A dear sweet friend of mine asked me if that prayer could be placed on a 12x12 tile similar to the one I had made for her as a gift for Christmas (different saying). I told her I didn't think it would be a problem, just would have to critique the font sizes. I asked who it was for and she stated for her daughter as she would be coming out of rehab in about 28 days. Her daughter had made a comment that she really liked that prayer as it was used at the facility she was at now and when she got out and was at home, she wanted to see it daily to remind her that no matter how tough things can get that she can get through it. Its funny how when you are doing a special request/gift for someone and they select a certain quote or as in this case a prayer how it can help you yourself. I too had forgotten about this prayer and it reminded me that with all that I am going through with my hubby, that I too can benefit from it to help keep me calm and know that God will give me serenity, courage and wisdom to get through our long journey ahead. We really never know the power of a quote/prayer and how it affects each of us differently until we are on a rocky road full of obstacles and yet knowing at the end it will finally be smooth and easy to walk on.Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-45031410299921739342012-03-01T09:59:00.007-08:002012-03-01T10:19:05.301-08:00My Therapy....As my husband begins his long journey down the road to recovery and to keep my sanity, I have promis<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1ACP1gmK7Lo/T0-5eE_k1EI/AAAAAAAAAuI/j07Cdj4LZsA/s1600/I%2BMiss%2BYou%2BMedium%2BWeb%2Bview.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 249px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5714990378544059458" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1ACP1gmK7Lo/T0-5eE_k1EI/AAAAAAAAAuI/j07Cdj4LZsA/s320/I%2BMiss%2BYou%2BMedium%2BWeb%2Bview.jpg" /></a>ed myself "ME" time in my craftroom. I have missed making cards, altered items and other crafty items since we found out that he has cancer. And in order to help keep my stress level down, I needed to do what I love and that was papercrafting. Its really amazing how card making or any papercrafting can get your mind off other worries and let yourself get totally absorb into the creation you are making. So with that being said, I drugged out a new set that I had ordered months ago from Verve (love this company) and inked it up for the first time and made this card. I love the plaid and pink and browns. The letters are covered in crystal accents and you really can't see the shininess on the letters. All has been popped out using SU dimensionals. I then used Pink Pearl by stickles to give the hearts some dimension.<br /><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-gljepE9nG9c/T0-5eED3bOI/AAAAAAAAAuA/ci5NrptAnAE/s1600/Love%2BYou%2BMedium%2BWeb%2Bview.jpg"></a></div>Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-92062487017262647452012-02-28T15:18:00.005-08:002012-02-28T15:49:28.048-08:00Prayers Have Been Answered!!!!!!Hubby's first treatment is tomorrow the 29th!!!!!!! But let me step back in time for a moment to get us to where we are today.<br /><br />2/22/12~~~I first want to say...THANK YOU TO ALL YOU PRAYER WARRIORS FOR WAYNE!!!! Warning this is a long post. LOL!!! Friday, February 17th was to be just a consultation at the Florence Wheeler Cancer Center. Hubby and I went in with the expectation that the Dr would have the results of the PETA scan and then make suggestions as to what treatment plan would be and then we would have to wait for further authorization for treatment. He had great bedside manners, and the people who work at the center are so sincere and compassionate. He said the PETA scan was clear as there were no other hot spots in the body.YEA!!!!! He looked at my hubby and said Mr. Burgess why did this take so long? As you definitely need this taken care of as he is looking through the chart. He said I believe that radiation will take care of this and if by chance it doesn't then what is ever remaining will be taken care of by the Dr at USC. But I firmly believe we can handle it all here and the only appointment you will need to see the surgeon at USC will be for him to correct your lid, since it has stretched so much...in other words a nip and tuck, to be able to see. Anyway, he stated that they needed to do another MRI with and without contrast, as well as a CT Scan with and without contrast and he needed to have his lab work done again. He said let me get the nurse and get this arranged; as he left the room I looked at him and said well we are another step closer and I said to hubby I need to tell him to be sure to mark it "stat" or the insurance company would put it on the back burner. I got up to tell him this and and he came back into the room and said, there is no need for any further authorization but I said it says only one visit on the authorization form. He smiled, placed his hand on my shoulder and said this is the authorization for treatment to begin TODAY!!!! We looked at each other and I just started crying! Hubby had tears as well plus a loud sigh of "Finally!!!"All tests were ran blood work, everything and was read back to us. They made a mask for hubbys face that will be placed on him as they do the radiation. It will then be screwed to the table to keep his head still and non-moveable during each treatment. We arrived at the center at 8:30 and left at 4:30. I told him this was the best 8 hours we have ever spent. They will be mapping out the radiation and once the doctor approves of the site where the radiation will be used it will begin as soon as Tuesday, or Wednesday the 29th the latest. So am I jumping for joy? Am I elated with pure joy? Oh you have no idea!!!! We feel like a 1000 pounds has been lifted off of our shoulders!!! Wayne is in better spirits today and his pain level is lessening. The doctor put him on cortisone to help get the swelling down and inflammation. GOD IS SO GOOD!!!!!!! Everyone thank you for your prayers; please continue to pray for the cancer to be completely gone once the 7 weeks is up.<br /><br />We have had several friends say they would be willing to help get him back and forth to his appointments so I wouldn't have to miss so much work, which has help relieve major financial burden off my shoulders. Our friends who offered were, Erica, Donyl, Rose and Chuck and we have truly been blessed by all of them who are willing to help when they can; but to have my ex-husband Geoff and his wife Vikki offer their help is really a blessing!!! I mean really think about it....how many ex's and their spouses would be willing to help you that you were once married to? I know to some of you that may sound strange, but through the years, differences have been set aside and we have become close friends or should I say more like extended family; we have stayed in touch with each other through holidays, birthdays, milestones in each others lives, in our losses of losing our parents, and so on. It has been good to have them as friends, knowing that we are there for each other and also because we are all now proud grandparents of 5 beautiful grandkids given to us by our children. I can't begin to thank the Lord enough for all who come forward to give us support and help in making sure my hubby gets well. They are truly angels in my eyes. Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-53586333545156599112012-02-16T15:03:00.001-08:002012-02-16T15:06:23.571-08:00Valentine Cards<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-QluyNjQ9QCI/Tz2LXemEK7I/AAAAAAAAAtw/T029jK9ZBqU/s1600/Key%2BTo%2BMy%2BHeart%2BMedium%2BWeb%2Bview.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 254px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5709873138041629618" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-QluyNjQ9QCI/Tz2LXemEK7I/AAAAAAAAAtw/T029jK9ZBqU/s320/Key%2BTo%2BMy%2BHeart%2BMedium%2BWeb%2Bview.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1MGEf8iWgZw/Tz2LXInml8I/AAAAAAAAAto/0aDJ_ceGT6o/s1600/Hey%2BHandsome%2BMedium%2BWeb%2Bview.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: left; HEIGHT: 246px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5709873132142499778" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-1MGEf8iWgZw/Tz2LXInml8I/AAAAAAAAAto/0aDJ_ceGT6o/s320/Hey%2BHandsome%2BMedium%2BWeb%2Bview.jpg" /></a> Here are a couple of cards I manage to make while trying to keep my mind busy. I used Cricut Cartridges in them and will list them as soon as I get time. They are simple cards for me as I really like to fuss and make them more fancey, but again just hadn't been in the mood.<br /><br /><br /><br /><div></div></div>Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-2547318622830729552012-02-16T14:50:00.001-08:002012-02-16T15:02:16.470-08:002012 Has Got To Be Better....The last time I posted was in October about our granddaughter great soccer plays. I have managed to make cards, and Christmas gifts through the last couple of months, but blogging on my blog was the least of my worries. A lot has happened since then. The big "C" has entered into our family with a vegenance and as I type this I am praying all will go well in the next few months for my darling hubsand. He has been diagnosis with malignant cancer which has metastize and it is taken a hold of his body. It started out in October the size of a pea and by December 15th it grew to a size of a small lime behind his left eye. It has began to put feelers out into his brain, back of his neck and lung. We go for a PETA scan Friday to see if there are anymore hot spots before they begin treatments next week. I pray there are no more. He is of small stature and has lost 15 lbs (which he can't afford to lose) and is being kept on morphine for the pain that is so excruiating, which makes him sleep alot. I have tried to stay positive, but there are days it gets the best of me. Anyway, I figured the best thing for me to do is put my nervous energy into my crafting and share it here on my blog. I ask for prayers for my hubby Wayne as you peruse my blog. Thank you so much.Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-37208719235417469022011-10-17T09:01:00.000-07:002011-10-17T09:13:16.469-07:00My Granddaughter is Awesome!If Grandparents don't brag who will? LOL!!! Saturday was my GD soccer game. She was excited not only did they win 10-0, but she also made three goalies!!!! WooHoo!!!! Her coach commended her on a job well done! I thought I would share some pics of her and then one of her and her fantastic coach. I just was thrilled for her!!!<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 258px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5664494261411412594" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-7By4qUQF-n0/TpxThNuqenI/AAAAAAAAArU/lsFPwRMbVnQ/s320/Mikayla%2B2.jpg" /><br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 288px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5664494258029078914" border="0" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-MjCNkdf9KPM/TpxThBIQKYI/AAAAAAAAArc/wNkaInblhYI/s320/Kayla%2Band%2Bher%2Bcoach.jpg" />Debhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13244179204302856695noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6222911223484968538.post-4331935275650070132011-10-11T13:17:00.000-07:002014-04-01T15:55:34.518-07:00Prize Drawing for Ladies RetreatThese are cards that I made for the Ladies Retreat for a prize drawing I went to last weekend. 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